LIFE AS I KNOW IT

9.07.2011

Unforgettable.

Dearest Niles,

I never liked cats. The day that mom said she was set on bringing you home, I freaked. I resented the idea of having you in this house and closed you off for the longest time. Not because I hated you, but because I was scared. I've grown up with dogs all my life, and to be honest, I was already scared. But, time made me realize that you, little furball, were heaven sent for this family. Every time I came home, I could hear your little voice, as I sighed in relief, knowing that I was indeed home. Your happy-go-lucky personality opened up my eyes in appreciation for the little things in life. When you quickly fell ill last week, I was devastated. We didn't think it was anything too serious, but little did we know that you were so sick. After a few trips to the vet, we decided to put our heart, mind, and soul into nursing you back to your old self through feeding and fluid treatments. You were doing so well in our eyes…

It's been a week since the second vet visit. Today, I went back to sleep after your routine morning feeding, waking up only to find you in the same spot I put you down at. Puzzled, I tried to make you walk, but you couldn't do it, only to stumble and fall towards your kitty litter. Your poor little body had gone through so much this past week that you barely had enough strength to open your eyes, breathe, and move your little tail. I couldn't bare see you in such a state as I called mom. I knew today would be the day that we would have to let you go. I tried to prepare myself, but in reality, when the time comes, this is something that can't be prepared for. Watching you during your last few breaths broke my heart. You were so good to our family; to me. You've made out house more of a home, and we thank you so much.

You taught me how to love and you taught me how to fight. I never felt so much compassion towards any of our pets, or any one for that matter. Sure I love my dogs, but you were different. Mom and I really wanted for you to live being your perky little self, but we tried our best, and so did you. It was just your time to go. It was one of the hardest things we had to do and experience, but knowing that you are no longer suffering and in a better place, a little part of us is at ease.

As I write this, know that you have made us into better people, inside and out. I've always been the type to build up walls, but you've helped be bring them down. You've made me realize that it is ok to let others in because, in reality, life is too short not to. We love you Niles, and miss you so, so much. You'll always be remembered. ♥

September 7, 2011 R.I.P. Niles


Thank you guys for all of your kind words and support.


And as strange as this was, this was the first song to be played after leaving the vet, and heading back into the car. No words to be said. Just tears to be shed. ♡
19 comments on "Unforgettable."
  1. ohmygoodness tiffy... I am so sorry :(

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  2. Aww I am so sorry :(
    I love animals. they show unconditional love and loyalty~

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  3. OMG Tiffany! I'm sooo sorry! I know how difficult it is to lose a pet, especially one that you've gotten so attached to. Cats have a way of warming your heart. RIP Niles. I'm so glad that you are no longer suffering. Tiffany, go and grieve all you need. I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, an ear to hear you vent or just need a hug (albeit cyber hugs), don't hesitate to contact me. You know how to get ahold of me. <3

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  4. I´m so  sorry, hope you get well sooner  :(

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  5. Im so sorry to hear about your Niles =( Im sorry you had to watch him go through so much pain! I know how you feel.. >.<;; sorta~ I hope everything will be okay in time. Good luck babe! If you need anything i'm here for you ^^

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  6. *HUGS YOU TIGHTLY*
    I'm so sorry to hear about Niles :( If you even need to talk, I'm here <3
    Take care of yourself sweetie <3 <3

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  7. So sorry to hear that. Lots of love and support from your readers *hugzz*

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  8. OMG Yama! So sorry to hear that. I cried reading this entry. ;( *hugsyamasotight*

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  9. Aww, thank you Beastie. <3 Miss you!

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  10. Thank you. <3 I'm feeling better. ^^

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  11. Thank you dearie. <3 I'm doing better. "Protect the Boss" <3 heh heh

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  12. Aw, thank you so much for understanding. <3 ^^

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  13. Thank you. ^^ Things are getting better~

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  14. Thanks for all your support always, Kat <33

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